“Ash, ash—
You poke and stir.
Flesh, bone, there is nothing there——
A cake of soap,
A wedding ring,
A gold filling.
Herr God, Herr Lucifer
Beware
Beware.
Out of the ash
I rise with my red hair
And I eat men like air.”
Lady Lazarus, Sylvia Plath
Writings
Laurel
Concrete scraped skies, bleeding
Gray down onto hopes and dreams.
A city constructed by hand,
Brick and glass,
As birds fly an inch overhead.
Apartment living, bringing her higher
To God than the mundanity
Below. Reflections glare her view,
Do not look down on asphalt roads.
An island in the sky,
Reaching out from her solace,
Across computer calls, they call
Onto her. To be the diviner,
A healer, a saint.
Prayers come in plenty.
To their confessions, worlds fall
And are built anew.
Fall to their knees at their new master,
The imagined turned reality,
The girl too, imagines.
Creativity is hindered by no sin,
And her limits reach higher
Than skyscrapers. The worlds
At her fingertips, like rain cupped
In gentle hands,
Poured from the mind,
Unfiltered and uninhibited; an artist.
Unselfish she gives
To the masses who want, want
For everything she has.
And yet,
Taken by the night,
Self indulgent and passion-filled
She creates little birds.
Flights of fancy.
Ink crawls up the skin,
Dirtied with work.
Gentleness carried by a dove,
Shoulders burdened,
Carried by a Hawk.
An envy curls around her heart,
And the laurel strangles
White feathers, fly.
Fall
Down onto concrete.
No matter how battered her wings,
How people pluck her feathers,
They do beg
For some semblance of her brilliance.
Social pariah.
Veiled in expectations,
She hears their words,
And her mind is miles away, in the heart
Of days flown by,
Time stole.
Marred by aspirations,
Dragged down in ash and flame,
She lies upon the shore,
Waiting,
Waiting for the world’s kindness
To reach back out to her.
Spirit hardened and abandoned,
A bird,
She sings for the world,
A last cry she never told.
And yet,
This caged dove so coveted,
Exploding with her own wants of
The world, who had chained her
Into nothing
Bears her wings.
Freedom is hindered by no guilt,
And she rose, higher than
What they used her for,
She snapped their spines against the roads below.
Guts
Tethered in warm embrace,
My sigh follows water drops, the slow
Descent of
Trepidation,
Of mournful song.
My mirror reflects me,
A sister I never had.
Braids my hair, whispers
Sweet nothings,
I know them well.
Feather-light caress
Of hands weathered with rage.
In the calm waters
I wait
Painting my endless devotion.
My eyes reflect
Towards my gentle companion,
Wrought for clarity, drowned
In subdued tempests.
Like storms I stay watching
Every rise of my chest,
Breathes fuel to my fire. A beauty
So love-filled and tender,
Smiling
Empathic.
Sloped shoulders carry
Flowing darkness,
A downward shaped frame,
Imposing in its conception,
Admiring ceaselessly.
Subtle and pale,
Hugging a forgiving heart,
Beating away, away
And into
Deeply.
Worn hands cage my stomach,
Let them lie there.
A surge of love so profound, it overtakes
Me. My core,
And I rip out my insides.
I love myself a little more.
The Girl who Cured Cancer
Chestnut moon, in lidded gaze.
Sorrow cast dark
Her shaded smile.
Hair wrapped in dignity,
Pious her lover.
Strayed hands gloved
In antiseptics.
Prescribed herself a poison
Of a woman.
An oath.
Daisies, roses,
Trust held steadfast, steady
In vice-grip. Pressure
To perform spectacles
Of sciences, of concepts misunderstood
Muttered in pale lies,
Insistent chemistry. To be,
Distorted handwrit
A lover, a friend,
The sun
In God-ish outlook,
Replenishes its misgivings.
A deadline to romance,
Terminal,
Concepts of a final stage.
Time without witness,
Loyalty
Gauze-wrapped and bloody.
Bargained disease.
And she rid herself of me.